Never trust someone with more opinions than scars.

This all-talk no walk, pseudo-omniscient someone knows too much for their own good. They believe they’ve connected the dots, that they understand the “whys” and “what fors”, when in reality they just hop from trend to trend without ever making their own. 

They have nothing to show as evidence of their knowledge because none of it is applicable where it needs to be. They can only react when confronted, not act when needed, and turn their noses up at others who possess such action-oriented knowledge because it often goes against what they believe to be the “right way to live”, that’s again, based on their own ill-founded and empirically-warped research. 

I’m going to name them…Narcyns: narcissistic cynicals.

A narcyn cocoons themselves within their knowledge, not realizing it heavily distorts the way they perceive the world. Nothing can just be for them; everything must meet their standard of good-bad and right-wrong. 

They’re dense from all they’ve consumed, and steadfast by their beliefs that they have it figured out; they’re foot is on the gas but the gear is neutralized.

What they believe to be a noteworthy symbol of recognition that places them above society intellectually is actually an impenetrable cloak of obnoxious entitlement. They are somehow never the problem and never wrong because of all their “knowledge.” They’ve found the “right” way to live, so how could they ever be at fault? 

It’s everyone else. It’s the circumstances. It’s the goddamn corporations. 

Everyone else is always against a narcyn as they pursue their goals of reaching the top (where they really want to be despite always condemning glory/recognition, prestige, materialism, and consumption culture) so in the meantime, they insult and hate on the go-getters who surpass them by ridiculing their style, speech, manner, habits, or any other trait/characteristic they can pick up on while watching the dust from the sideline.

Narcyns are often proud of their ability to self-reflect, (I will also admit they are very great at reflecting on their pasts) therefore knowing “exactly” how to live, what they want and don’t want, their strengths and weaknesses, and what to stand for and against. 

I believe they do in fact have a great understanding of themselves, the issue I see is the narratives that grow from such reflections. They tune their memories to fit a narrative of “them/all against me.” Their sense of identity and nearly all of their core beliefs are skewed because their foundation is built from “I’ve been damned, I had it rough, the world isn’t getting better, blah blah.” Then everything else they believe about themselves and life turns black and white, this or that, them or me, rich or poor, smart and dumb, etc and etc.

I abhor people who have a reason for everything. Who put a label on everything. Live! Do! Sometimes I see their stress to maintain the shield around themselves physically manifest into hunched backs, scowling faces, and envious eyes. 

My upperhand against the narcyns is that I don’t care if I’m wrong because I have nothing to prove. Narcyns have to be right because they need as much information to bolster their defensive beliefs about themselves and the world to maintain as much comfort and control as possible. If they’re found wrong, they become accountable for all they’ve wasted and abused, so when a piece of their wall is broken, they anxiously scramble to repair it ten-fold.

They’re aware of their shortcomings so they clench extra hard, boast extra loud, and judge extra precisely to deflect as much as possible. 

They work overtime trying to create and uphold the “perfect” circumstance for their abilities to shine, but because these circumstances go against the flow of everyday life and expectations so diametrically, something inevitably disturbs this “perfect” circumstance so they spend the rest of the time complaining about how they can never catch a break. That “if only people would leave them alone and give them the space to truly be themselves”, then they’d be able to show and prove their worth…finally! 

My stance is, the more things I’m wrong about, the closer I am to the truth of it all; using what I’ve gathered to narrow the convergence towards absolute truth. A narcyn’s stance is the more things they are right about, the more the world should respect them.

They boast that they don’t believe in perfection, claim to be well-learned that perfection is an impossible state to achieve and any genuine efforts in shooting for it will only result in a degree of distress, and yet can’t see the fallacy of their thought when it’s then turned and applied to their pursuit of a perfect circumstance to live what they preach so often. 

And God-forbid you call them out on their inconsistencies, empty-promises, and under-deliveries, now you’re the asshole that just “doesn’t understand how hard it is” or some other version of that.

Anyways, I’m finished with this vent.